Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Another Chance received

This happened while I was in manipal- second year or so, and it was such a surprise (to say the least).
This was the second time i was traveling to gokarna, which I personally understand as heaven on earth, i remember that I (accompanied with alap)- left on a saturday evening- taking the train, and had the mind to just chill out at the beach for some hours and catch the late night(early morning) train back to manipal - the distance being meager at just 2.5 hours odd by train. It was the perfect chill out scene, we boarded and reached gokarna stataion, in time- this is around 16 or more kilometers from the small religious town. We took a share cab to the town, where we headed to the beach- i took some time off to goto the precious beautiful gokarna-ishwara temple. We took upto a shack on the corners of this beautiful beach- i remember it was around holi, as soon we saw (almost ethereal looking) group of firangs; with long matted hair coming- playing flutes and little guitars asking all the shack owners for bhang and bhang related drinks lol :). Holi being the only time across india, where this product is freely available and accepted. We relaxed for a long time and struck up a conversation with the shack owner, the asswipe realized that we had come for no good reason- to chill out and (him) being drunk, started going off tangentially to different topics ranging from how unsafe gokarna was, and how deaths to tourists were common, and that; if we were to head back late at night to the station, should take an auto et all back. He takes initiative and goes gets another drunk person (pretending to be an auto walla)- who further start threatening and such. So we cut our party short, give some assurance that we will be back later to take the auto, and head off. These guys are piss drunk and pissed for not making us a bakra- and we get the intuition that this auto person goes to the auto stand, and tells all the drunkards there that we didnt cooperate in getting our money swindled by them. Autos kind of (as we imagine atleast) start following us through the town, and we are pretty unnerved, so we head to the bus stop- and there are no buses late night as we find out. We didnt have the mood to take a share auto-cab, cause we really didnt have any idea of what the scene in small towns like these is (sometimes there are pretty strong mafias- in hippie towns like gokarna et all... something which i have witnessed in goa as well- almost anywhere where foreign currency is valued more, and hence foreign skin as well). We start our walk back in the night- all the way back to the gokarna road station. I must tell you, the walk back in the night over some 16 km- through thick wild western ghat jungles- mixed with hills and lakes and what not- is very haunting, it was good that alap accompanied me, cause all through the journey we encounter some thousand odd house dogs, who run right in the middle of the road with teeth jarring out ready to mince meat us; alap is bloody psycho- he barks and shows his teeth back to these dumbass house pets, and they actually get freaked out. lol :) I actually cowered the entire journey behind the freak, so that dogs wouldnt bite me - something i dont think i will forget ever. We reach the station at some 12-1 at night, there is not a single soul alive anywhere for kilometers at end, the western ghats become very haunted at night, they are sparcely populated- lack of light and human habitation and very very weird vibes from the jungles abound. Something very intriguing indeed. I remember we complete the walk in one go, no rest anywhere (except at the start)- we were tired, and just shocked at the incidents preceding the walk. something to keep us alert till the time we reached back to the station. 
The gokarna road station is very peculiar, it is a side road extending deep into jungle for 2 odd kilometers diverted from the main road, its desolate is an understatement. Its haunted, and the station is barren, no night keeper or anyone. Most trains dont stop here, and hence no need for a station attendant. The night is young and we realize that we need to get some sleep before the train (scheduled at around 4 in the morning came). Alap dozes off on the platform floor (another feature of the stations which come after maharashtra- on the west coast all the way to kerala is- their abundant cleanliness, their quite charm.. out of the world) and in sometime even i hit the floor (quite literally) putting my knapsack behind my head for some cushion and hit dreamland,
now this is where the fun comes in, I suddenly get up with some weird loud noises out of hell marching through my ears, my head and soul. as soon as i come back to reality, the first thing i notice is that alap is also in the same condition some distance away from me, and both of us were some 2 odd feet from the platform end-tracks- where a huge fast bogey train (carrying supplies) runs at incredible speed. We actually slept quite a far distance away from the platform end, and both of us somehow in our stupor sleep slipped up to very close to the tracks-very very close, a foot closer (my head was actually at the platforms end-so horrible i tell you, even today when i remember it) and i would be crushed beyond belief by the goods train. I get up to my feet before i can even remember anything else, and run away from the monster. 
We catch our scheduled train two hours later (the train was very late)- and reach back to our hostel beds just in time for some more sleep. The night just went by, and so did the days after this trip till one day i realized that i was actually very close to my death, something which didnt hit me till a long time after. Its been very nice to be given another chance, for i alone know (dont know about alap really) that this was such a close close call for my head and my life. 

Peace.

Monday, December 14, 2009

Serpents Tongue

Lashing out faster than fury, the wrath of ages bent into fangs- quite the death story, in this way, no way to suffer this way?! Bringing the thirst for toxic in you, nemesis of the underworld. darkness has always been your way.
Slithering past the corpses of good, flung into rapture at the sight of the deep hidden nocturnal eyes, everywhere looking to bloodbath the existent to decay. The serpent does not stop, does not ever sway.
Bringer of sorrow, Bleed the cross; Shutter at your sight every night. Nightmares of abyss; bent frame, broken up just the same. Bringing visions from the other side, of sweet glory of our demise. No more no more, let us stop this madness, the serpent coils rearing to strike down.
Ecstatic at each days end, bringing the flames to our cremation ever close; no relief never any respite, All the ends bringing me closer to your fangs, The fires burning deeper, when will it all end, the serpents tongue flickering takes over your mind.

Now you see as it sees; brings the darkness everywhere into your eyes. There was never an escape, the conditions lead you to this state. The serpent has called you hypnotically through its flickering tongue.

Do its bidding, master of puppets strings you day and night as you move into a stupor, neither seeing nor being yourself anymore. days trans mutates into twilight of sins. Ever evil and so potent. Calling the demons through the window, you seek redemption of no one. 

Darkness so potent, that you can be blessed only in its presence. The cold rain falls and brings the chill back into your mind. The last crucifix. You are the redemption of mankind. the ticking time bomb bringing annihilation in this cruel and senseless time. 


contributed by memories of a very beautiful movie- Fallen starring denzel washington. :)

Salutations MasterBlaster~


Salutations to the morning sun, the ever new rays penetrating through glistening eyes, everything will be alright surya whispers with the gentle morning breeze, the cold evaporated every nights end with you, rising and stretching morning glory towards every horizon. Salutations to you thousand fold oh savitr.

Dont look twice, the gentle sun set at the end of blue-green valley. Kumaon sets in with the pretty colors of each and every layer of your power, you make the skies alive with your grace oh sun, you are the soul of each and every living creature on this planet. You are the solar - anu - strength to endure. You are food, as well as rain. You are the epitome of creation. Salutations to you wise one.

Every single kinetic reaction, a product- a source unto you. Ever present in light and darkness, you are true dispeller of illusion. Aditya, of the celestial. You are the illumination of soul.

Without respite, the saints seek true power from you. Your gaze enough to transmit true atomic knowledge. of eons together, at once.
Surely there is wisdom still to pray once again towards the ultimate-only source of life under these harsh conditions, these harsh times. never supporting the cause of life- you, wise one have been ever burning with intent to remove the harsh, to bring smooth life on earth.
At konark, you lie across all directions- governing each horizon with the gentle gaze, your rays penetrate the morning dew across the calm ocean, shining on your idol ever so graceful. To bring one to you, removes the troubles of the mundane. You are the ever present soul-controller. Salutations to your shining brightness, burning away each and every notion of darkness; of death; of stagnation..

Eons together to master, how to gaze and respect the power of the sun, to love and be able to create like the sun. Sages still in the true quest of the solar realm, of solar prowess- there is none like it. for you see both you and I, all of us are under one single ruler. It has always been like that, salutations to the power that guides. Sabka malik ek .....
To the atomic creation towards life ever lasting. Peace Peace Peace

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Time Travelers-III

The gods did know a secret, that secret being revealed to mankind as well. That when it comes to creation and time travel, there is not one but many many universes we can travel. As scientists are beginning to validate now, that time is not a linear progression, it is a dimension unto itself, like a sphere. But that being that, the alien master race- which might have implanted the seeds to life on this planet- wanted to experiment in another way- any and all action has a consequence, but we all know that the consequence or result is not fixed-with a definite end, all actions can lead to different end results... the gods see that, and the dichotomy experimentation they hold is this... that after planting the seeds of life in this planet and watching and experimenting with it while growing, whether they (being the planet-including us/human beings) can change the end result. This is the crux of the phenomena which we choose to call "free will"
Free will. has the tendency to create time and space. Will is the power/energy which makes it come alive. All of existence. It took the creator will to create. and similarly each and every energy "movement" is a direct result of the "energy" called will. If you tend to notice, there are various occult documents, which give a different function to will than other energy in this universe. No one knows what the will is other than the sound=Om/Aham/Ameen/I am; it creates. That too why/how/till when?- very subjective.
The will in this prakarti in this day and age is working towards desolation. Towards the end. And of course towards another beginning (hopefully).
The gods who grace us with their presence, once in a while from outer space- do want us to realize, that though we might have been made in their image, we are creatively endowed- even perhaps in some respect; more than them, to exercise this powerful human will of ours to accomplish as we please/choose.
The pertinent question now is, which way are we turning the collective will of our earth, towards harmony and peace. Towards joy and liberation through society or towards disharmony and corruption of nature, towards abysmal experiences and emotions?
My "gut" feeling tells me that the inclusion of will when we are looking at gods is very essential piece of the pie. As much as i am inclined to trust the fact that I might be bowing down to the alien who created me, I am also equally trusting to the fact that I do not have to bow down towards god; if I am chooses not to.

Peace

Friday, December 11, 2009

The word again?

I say, Every word that god says is the truth...... We (even atheists would agree) that god is supposed to represent that, but what if we tried it another way (ofcourse), what god forgot to say.. take all my words as 'truth' and 'literal'... maybe god thought it meant the same thing... we didn't

so the small experiment i take upon myself (now for quite some time), is whenever i am reading anthropological related material (myths- theosophy-philosophy-culture reminisces related to religion) -> i try to relate a literal meaning to what is being said... things which are written in old documents-> some times you can get a very easy/uncomplicated meaning to it- which you can even relate to, 

the problem with all of us is when we try to read some really spiritual or religious doc, is that we take it already for granted that it wont mean what it could simply mean... the truth is just in front of us, and we are looking at the skies for a meaning from god. 

If you look at religious/cultural texts from this point of view, very very easily you will be able to try to relate a human experience with the human being who wrote it at some point of time... 

Then it becomes even easier to try to relate- a rational (not necessarily a logical) explanation to what the text/experience is trying to impart- show. 

Many such texts tell us distinct simple powerful experiences-paranormal life merged with our 'barriered' conscious existence. Take a re-look at (any) religious/spiritual text and try to read through with literal truthful experiences written, and if the text is supposedly from god herself, then all the better i say...... 

Peace

*A-dwaitya*





























Aham Brahamasmi, Life is supposed to give you a pure non-dual experience, what is all of this about? A weird trip somewhat to many but you can try it none the less...
breathe deep, make the breath slower and steadier, imagine - create - envisage a perfect being (for me personally it would be shiva-shambu or maybe the beautiful mountain arunachala, for reasons so true) and create this being/this mountain/this power- this energy everywhere... see each and every person as this energy, even you. Maintain your breath slow and steady, see your world transform into sheer energy. If you can withstand the attention, the cognitive change and the sheer energy which will seep through you. What an experience, i wonder.
All your interactions are towards yourself... you are the mother father and child. you are your own friend, and your own enemy... your own son. a unified vision of sorts.. definitely a weird trip ;)
This not my dream, as much as it is, yours. I assure you. That you and I - we- one- have created it together. And without you AND I to dissolve it, well....
One ness is a feeling, its the state which precedes the creation of states. It could be called none (akasha-void), or trinities or as you choose and wish. It has no name, and no form. Bounded by none, it creates 'it'. with light, sound and action.... ;)
So many people have undergone such transformation in a matter of some years, from seemingly egoistic, to an egoless state- what could be i? if all was i? This is a sublime state, graceful state- according to so many. It is after all an experience not bound by just you as 'I'. Its the experience of the non, as well as all.
Welcome to the new paradigm, consciousness revealing itself. Stage by stage de/e/volution towards (n)one.
As if you and i already did not know that. Aham Brahamasmi!!

Time Travelers-II

" GOD IS AN ALIEN, AND WELL SO ARE YOU"

Ode to Humanity

I am not a big fan of human kind, the version of life that in today’s day seems to be only focused upon itself. The day’s pass and humans ...